This journey is like none other that I have ever been on. Some days are easy, filled with anticipation, packing, looking at little girl clothes and dreaming of who Georgia will be. And some days are so just so hard....it feels like every breath is weighed down by the grief of knowing that we still have so far to go, and that I can do nothing to make it go faster. Literally , her life hangs in the balance. She needs her open heart surgery now. So, today is one of "those days".
Amazingly, both kids are happily at their amazing preschool together (a first) celebrating "donuts with Dad" and I get a few minutes at home. What I want to do more than anything is to crawl under the covers and have one big pity party. You see today is day 70 of waiting for our LOA. The "normal" range of waiting is 50-70 days. I feel sad, bone tired from waiting, like I cannot make it one more day of this journey.
Instead of wallowing I want to list out some of the scriptures that have been my rock lately. I know that I am not the only one in this boat and maybe in claiming these here it will help me and others. Feel free to join in with me in the comments!
The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him,
and he delivers them.
Taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
Fear the LORD, you his saints,
for those who fear him lack nothing.
The lions may grow weak and hungry,
but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.
Here it is in The Message as well
God's angel sets up a circle of protection around us while we pray.
Open your mouth and taste, open your eyes and see—how good God is.
Blessed are you who run to him.
Worship God if you want the best; worship opens doors to all his goodness.
Young lions on the prowl get hungry,
but God-seekers are full of God.
Ephesians 3:14-21 (New International Version)
For this reason I kneel before the Father,
from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name.
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power
through his Spirit in your inner being,
so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.
And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love,
may have power, together with all the saints,
to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,
and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—
that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,
to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
Matthew 11:28 NIV
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Matthew 12:20 NIV
"A bruised reed he will not break,
and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out,
till he leads justice to victory.
In his name the nations will put their hope."
These are where I am determined to place my hope!