Hands and house

Hands and house

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Still Waiting...

   The Cardiologist is supposed to contact me "soon." I just found out that she has been out of town all last week. She emailed and said she had not seen any of Georgia's recordings yet but had requested them...so maybe tomorrow we will know a little bit more even though we are supposed to record all month long.
     God gave me a gift in this little guy though....

Who told me that his 'toots' are a "Bottom popping force shield that protects the Universe!!!"

and this gal kept distracting me with her goofy antics...like drinking my whole cup of coffee (decaf thankfully) while I wasn't looking!

and my sweet big girl picked out supplies for what is shaping up to be a stunning family tree. the whole time she kept saying, "Mama, this is just the best day ever!"

I am learning and wrestling with the fact that these children are a gift
and that not even tomorrow is promised for us

that eternity is unfathomably longer than our life here on earth, and yet I cling to the here, the now, the tangible, huggable part of Georgia's life...and my own.

Am I living it with my eyes on eternity?

I am so blinded by now and my desire for more of now with my kids,

it is easy to also be blinded by the grief that swells at the 'what-ifs' that are in our life now,
but in many ways we all live with those same "what-ifs" everyday, we just don't fully see them...

and somehow, in the wrestling, God's message continues to stream in like a ray of light in the darkest room

He is here, right with me, carrying me and holding me in this darkest of places, reminding me

in the craziest of ways...

Like on Sunday when I went to put my laptop in it's bag as the Kids and I were about to say goodbye to Doug for another week. I kept trying to shove it in but it would not budge. I looked to see what it was stuck on and it was this:

I made this for our rtip to China to go and get Georgia...somehow, it was in this bag, right then, refusing to let my laptop slide in!

Or the note from a dear friend from college who said she does not normally go to church. She went to church to support her boyfriend and had Georgia on her mind. What did they sing? Mighty to Save!

So, I cling, with my fingernails to the promise...

When you pass through the waters,

I will be with you;

and when you pass through the rivers,

they will not sweep over you.

When you walk through the fire,

you will not be burned;

the flames will not set you ablaze.
Isaiah 43:2

Thank you again for praying for us and for Georgia, she seems more tired, to be having more 'spells' and to be a bit more 'blue' than normal to me. We really need answers!


Cedar said...

Thanks for the update. We are still praying for Georgia.

Melinda said...

You and Georgia have been on my mind constantly. Praying for peace as you await the results and believing for good news!!!

The Raudenbush Family said...

What a great post. I love how you are recognizing God's presence and blessings to you in the midst of the confusion and worry. Keep your fingernails in His promises, sister!

Ginny said...

Praying with you today. Hope you hear something soon

Serving the King said...

Continued prayers for your sweet girl and that His peace will continue to wash over you!

Renee said...

Shannon ! I am keeping you all in prayer, but especially Georgia..If you feel she does not look or act right, listen to your instincts and be a mama bear in getting her help asap. Hope I am not being too bold in saying that...
Your faithful leaning on God is a testimony to so many. Your children are so beautiful to behold inside and out. Love what your boy said about his toots!
Sending gentle hugs out your way...

Tara Anderson said...

It's so hard to live with eternity in sight...but I am thankful that God is putting out little reminders for you to do just that. Thanks for passing them along so that I can be reminded as well! :)

I'm praying for you and your family, my precious friend!!!

Holly said...

Big prayers. We head to China tomorrow for Elaina and I plan to use some long airplane time for intercession!

Karen Dawkins said...

Praying for peace and trust in God's plan.
Praying for miraculous healing for Georgia.
Praying for strength for you and Doug.
Praying for wisdom for the cardiologist.

sara said...

Oh that toots comment made me laugh.

Still thinking good thoughts for you, your family and Georgia.

Sharon Ankerich said...

Love your post and love your pics and want you to know I am still praying! Hope you get news soon and in the meantime, hold fast to those 3 blessings right there in front of you!!!


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