Leaning on the Everlasting Arms...

     I am really weary tonight but just had to share a few things.

Georgia continues to a HUGE joy, so full of smiles and hugs...

She is learning that she is funny and doubles over with the best belly laugh I have ever heard,

Then she looks up while covering her mouth, bright eyes sparkling...

and at the same time somehow my heart fills with joy and begging.

Every time that I would hit that spot of feeling like I could not go even one more step...someone would email or leave a comment here, or call...God's perfect timing every time.

(So excited about being tucked in with about a million blankies by her big sister!)

What I never want to forget about today are these two things:

Today Linny did a day of fasting and prayer for anyone who had prayer requests. I added Georgia's to her list.

I woke up this morning so tired and just overwhelmed by the idea of another day of worrying, grieving and waiting/hoping/dreading another episode.

As I stood in the shower praying, God gave me a very clear picture. It was of Georgia and I. I was sitting and holding her in my arms, kissing her cheek. Surrounding us were people kneeling with heads bowed for as far as the eye could see.

That is what got me through this day. Knowing that I was not alone, when I was so scared, that picture would come back...and it made all the difference.

THEN...

Then, Georgia and I were driving to go and pick up her siblings from school and she had a milder version of the episodes I have seen before. The kind that instantly made me sick to my stomach. I pulled over on the side of the freeway and, as semi trucks whizzed by took a recording of her heart.

As we drove on I planned out how to transmit the recording. I planned on stopping by my friend Shelly's house but at the last minute for some crazy reason felt like I should go to Wal Mart to do it instead. I needed to find a bag for Georgia's machine because in carrying it around everywhere, it takes up one of my hands. With three pretty small kids, that is not a good thing!

So, I was pretty rattled from Georgia's spell, worried about the 'worst case' scenario and praying hard that maybe this would be one that would give us some information as I walked in to the store. I went to the customer service desk and there was a huge line. The monitoring place has made it pretty clear that we need to transmit the recording asap and it had already been 15 minutes. So I went to the greeter guy and very simply said, "My daughter has a heart condition and we have a recording device, I need to send a message via phone." And he didn't freak out (hooray)!!!!

He got us to the phone and then left. We did the transmit thing and headed further into the store to find a bag for the machine. While we were walking down the aisle, the same greeter came out of the back. He walked up to me and said, "The Lord just told me to come and pray over your daughter. I could lose my job but honestly, I don't care...it was that clear that I was supposed to do it. She is a mricale and you need to know that."

Then he prayed, knowing little to nothing about the situation...and the things that he prayed for, " a definitive answer from the doctors about what is going on in Georgia's heart."

When he was done, Georgia gave him a big hug. He kissed her, told her he loved her and that she can call him Uncle Mark from now on.

I walked away with tears streaming down my face.

God is so present in this.

I have no idea why we are walking through this nightmare,

or how it will end...

but God could not make it more clear that He is right here, closer than I could ever imagine and that I am not alone.

A friend sent me this verse today:

In my distress I cried to the Lord and He heard me.

Psalm 120: 1

He wants to carry us, He hears our every worry and will not leave us or forsake us. Even in this darkest place.

Please keep praying.

It is our lifeline right now...and the most powerful thing possible.

Your comments and emails are buoying us in incredible ways and God is using each and every one at the perefct time.

Thank you with everything in me.