I remember it so vividly, late at night, my eyes blurred with exhaustion I sat reading emails in the computer lab of Ronald McDonald House. We were still in the thick of Georgia's open heart surgery and it was the first time I had left her bedside. I had just tucked our other two children in and waited until the soft sound of their breathing told me they were asleep. Then, leaving them with our dear friend I came out to respond to emails.
...and there it was....
" Shannon, God has done so much. You just have to write a book about what He has done because there are more Georgia Meis out there."
I sat and I sat because I knew deep in my soul that God was starting something.
Weeks later, life in full boom with Georgia home it happened again. A different friend wrote and said, "You really need to write a book." Again and again this would happen and again and again I told God, "I need more confirmation, who am I to write a book? I don't want this to be about me at all."
....and there the confirmation came, and came, and came until 35 different people had told me, unsolicited that I needed to write a book...
So, slowly, ever so slowly I have been doing just that. I haven't told many people and honestly my hands are shaking just writing this now because I don't in any way want this to be about me.
IT. IS. ABOUT. THEM.
The Lord keeps whispering to me about them, the other little ones who wait, the ones who so desperately need a Mama and Daddy to step out and risk. To step into that fear that their broken little hearts may not make it. Because they are so worth risking for. Seeing God move the way He did in our lives with Georgia is SO worth stepping out for.
So...basically I am a weenie. I have not submitted the book to a publisher or to really anyone. Even Doug has not read it yet. But I guess I am asking if there is anyone here who would be interested in prayerfully taking a look at it and being brutally honest about what you think, where it needs improvement, what doesn't make sense.
I have worked on it for so long and now feel the Lord nudging me that I need to take this next step. It is not totally finished, it still has tons of rough edges....it will never be some big fandangled thing...but my prayer is that somehow God will use it to bring more heart babies, well more babies in general home.
So...anyone curious, love to read? Want to take a look? Let me know and I'll (eeek) email you a copy.