Hands and house

Hands and house

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

In that leaning place again...just being real.

 So, life has been so much fun lately. Sunshine and excited kids, packing boxes everywhere as we get ready for a move that we really feel like God has brought about. So many giggles, so much excitement and also, a few things that I am struggling with.
    We got a call on Friday that the lab ran the wrong tests again for Ravenna's bloodwork. This is the second time. It means blood draw #5 on Friday :( My heart is breaking for her. I know it is just a blood draw and that so many kids go through so much more but, for my tender hearted girl these blood draws are completely traumatic. During the last one she had to have 2 nurses hold her down and afterwards I had to carry her sobbing from the hospital while she screamed, "No more blood draws Mama, promise me no more." and I hated that I could not promise her that. We are going to a Children's hospital in the city that is used to drawing and testing for coagulation stuff so hopefully it will all go well.
    Then today Miss Georgia really scared me. We were at preschool and out playing in the sunshine with her classmates. They did a race across a big grassy field and back again. Halfway back she stopped in her tracks, doubled over and grabbed her chest. I ran over to her and she looked up at me, face pale with big worried eyes and said, "My chest feels funny."
   I scooped her up and another teacher prayed over her. We walked back to the playground and after a few minutes she wanted to get down and play some more. I watched her as she ran around for a minute or so and then she did the very same thing. ...then it happened again inside when the kids were dancing to music. All of a sudden the teacher said loudly, "Georgia, what is wrong?" Everyone stopped and she was standing in the middle of her friends, doubled over and clasping her chest.
    I try so hard to keep my mind fixed on the logical answers, on the things that the Cardiologist has said before but there is just nothing easy about watching my girls struggle. I found myself wiping tear after tear as I drove waiting ot hear back fro the Cardiologist (still waiting...). The truth is sometimes it just is scary, sometimes their are things that are really hard without answers. I know in my head that this will all probably work out just fine and that we are being carried through. Tonight I just want to take my babes and hold them and let my arms be enough to protect them.
     This Bible verse came home from school with Ravenna today and I have it sitting by my bed now...

I know what it is to be in need,
and I know what it is to have plenty.
I have learned the secret of
being content in any and every situation,
 whether well fed or hungry,
whether living in plenty or in want.
I can do everything through him
who gives me strength.
Philippians 4:12-13

  **** It is now Thursday morning and guess what my littlest yogurt covered one has decided to tote around and have me read over and over again?

Yep. That's Ravenna's card with the Philippians verse one it! She must have had me read it to her 20 times already :) Just what I needed!


Susan A said...

I am so sorry for this worry, Shannon, please know that I am praying for you, and for Georgia's heart to be protected, also peace for Ravenna.

Valerie and Jeff said...

I was praying that Georgia's heart problems would have healed completely. Oh Shannon! Still praying for you guys! I have thought of you a lot lately as B (our oldest) has had nose bleeds lately--ug. In fact, now that I think back to the last time he had blood drawn (Kdg. round-up iron level check required by the State.) I had to restrain him with BOTH arms with him screaming ... and he kicked (and not gently) the nurse doing the finger poke blood draw ... it was so traumatic for him ... so I do really feel for Ravenna (and you!) Oh yes ... and then there was when he needed stitches in his head 2 years ago from his b-day party at the mini-golf course. Imagine that scenario. Although we did get to witness a bit to our doctor who was stunned when Brayden went from screaming psycho child at the site of the needle to a calm(er) compliant child when Jeff started to pray outloud right there in the trauma center while restraining him in a bear hug.
I am so disappointed that they keep running the WRONG test for Ravenna. Perhaps in the meantime God is doing wonders and healing the nose bleed cause. I'd always like to think there is a beautiful reason for mishaps.

Adrian Roberta said...

Shannon, I'll be praying for your sweet little girls, and for peace and calmness for the next BloodDraw aswell. So sorry this has been such a hard week.

Miller Moments said...

Oh Georgia! We are praying for you little gal. Sending a big cyber hug to you right now!


I'm so frustrated with you regarding Ravenna. I can't believe, knowing how hard this is for her, that they aren't more careful when they run those tests. Thankfully you are now going to a Children's Hospital-hopefully they will get it right!

Rachel said...

Via Linny's blog yesterday - I'm praying for you & your girls that the Father will bring peace, wisdom & healing!

Renee said...

Lifting Georgia and Ravenna up in prayer, you and all your family...for what is ahead, for healing, for moving...for it all. God, have mercy on this faithful family!

Tara Anderson said...

I know it's hard. I can barely balance all the "healthy" stuff that's following Caden's surgery. I can't imagine...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your girls!!!

Ben and Rach said...

That's so scary and hard! I will keep praying for the girls and you! Love you!


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